2019 vision board

Okay, it’s almost February, but I am sharing my vision board for this year. Better late than never ey?

But really, I’ve never been the one to make goals for myself. However, I am all about making the things you want to happen, happen. Seeing your goals every day on a board or for my example (a wire display board) helps you envision them. It just more than making a list and scratching it off.

I did make a whole youtube video here If you want to watch me make it.

Otherwise I will kind of go over a few things I want to make happen this year.

Now I’m not putting expectations for everything to happen on this board, it is more of just a guideline for me.

I went to Target and picked up this wire board in the stationary section and grabbed some clothespins, and I went to town! Re-usable for more than just my yearly visions.

Choose your battles:

I put a photo up about picking my battles. I’ve always been a very intense person. I feel so deeply and I need to learn what stresses are worth my time and which ones are a complete waste. This includes at work and in my interpersonal relationships. Choosing when to let something that bothers me to be let go.

Puppy:

Do I have to say anything more? I have been wanting a dog for SO long now. Kevin just won’t give in quite yet. This year though he said we can focus on it. I really would like a german shepherd. But any lab, golden retriever, or boxer will do!

Spend less:

Not going to lie, I spend money on pointless sh*t sometimes. Learning to really ask myself “do I need this, or is this a want? How is this going to improve my life, and is this impulsive?”

Materialistic things can not go with you into eternity ladies and gentlemen, yet we stock pile all our things and show them off in our home like they come with us.

Minimalize + Organize:

Along with spending less, I’ll be able to organize better. Who else has read or watched “Tidying Up” with Marie Kondo? Does each item in your home bring you joy? *tosses a crap ton of stuff out*

I am making it a point to slowly minimalize and organize our home. Making things easier to see, but organized. Getting rid of the clutter and things we don’t wear or use!

House:

It is time to buy a house. I have been praying about this and I have had it on my heart for a while. If ya’ll could keep us in your thoughts and hopefully we can make this happen! I want to set some roots down, maybe renovate a little bit, have a space to start fresh and be called truly home.

Camera:

I want to hopefully purchase my very first camera this year. I have been really focusing on my blog and I am looking to bring it to the next level! I know I can do this. It will just take dedication and saving.

Graduate:

Helping Kevin graduate. Doing whatever I have to do to make sure he is successful. Now he is the only one that can control his success in his school work but I can make sure he’s provided other things to complete and be stress free. Little things such as motivating him daily, making food ahead of time for him to bring, communicating, etc. Little things matter. This is his last semester and he will have his master’s degree!

Healing old wounds:

This one is important to me. There are a lot of things emotionally that I hang on to. I actually review a few of them with you because I try to be honest on this outlet. One wound I have is I take all of the people that have left my life or done me wrong and I relate their actions to something being wrong with me. I take it personally and I become hard on myself and I start to become insecure. I relate my loneliness to this as well and I am hard on myself and think “how can I be better for people to stick around or not be shitty?” When in reality I shouldn’t ever take it personally. Yes it’s important to acknowledge if you do something wrong however, relating everything bad happening to you because of who you are and you feel the need to change is wrong….and I need to fix that. I’ve gotten better over the past 6 months but more healing is needed. I need to forgive those that I feel have done wrong to me and move on and open my heart to new experiences and people in my life.

Another one is acceptance. I have this emotional wound in me that I feel the need to feel accepted. I’ll give a great example. Kevin’s family. I feel like everyone else matters but me at times in that family and it’s hard. I have this overwhelming feeling to be accepted by all of them and I go above and beyond to make them want to be close to me, but at the end of the day I do myself more harm than good.

I do this in all my interpersonal relationships and it is time to stop caring and to just do me. If people don’t accept me for who I am, I shouldn’t care and I shouldn’t take it personally.

Another thing I hold against myself that I need to heal is my guilt towards my upbringing and what I could have done better to make myself a better person back then. I'll have to share more about this later.

Baby steps.

Let go and let God:

Time to let go of all expectations and let God show you the way. Trying to live by this. Trusting that his timing is perfect and all of my downfalls are blessings in disguise. It’s hard to try and control many things in our lives so this is very important to me.

New York: You guys, you know how much I love Christmas. Well….it’s one of my dreams to go to NY during Christmas time. Hopefully we can make that happen this year!

Exercise more:

I NEED to get more active.

Get a new job:

Enough said. Done wasting my time to please others or to avoid hurting their feelings.

NEW 2019 MOTTO: “SOUNDS LIKE A PERSONAL PROBLEM”

Create a new schedule:

I want to wake up early every morning and have more hours to live! I love my sleep but morning time I want to be my special time.

Thank you all if you got through this post! I was very honest and open with you all and I appreciate the time you took to read! I love to know your goals for yourself. Let me know in the comments some of your personal goals! What are you doing to hold yourself accountable to them?